Sunday, March 28, 2010

Take ME Away

"Pardon Me, I'm a daydreamer; I keep my head in the clouds. Life's still beautiful, i'm a believer; to hell with the bullshit-baby make me smile: Cause life should be an after party, and love should be a sweet champagne..."
Teedra Moses "Take it Away"

Loving life makes living that much better
but living just makes you here
Understanding what life can be
Appreciating the present

Moment to moment
More precious than the last
Staying in the fast lane
Destined to run outta gas

Riding to the left doesn't mean
You know where you wanna go
it just means that you know where you're at isn't
where you wanna be
But you zoom zoom anyway

I hang back,
Wait for my inspiration
Them I'm gone with the wind
ready for my destination


The quoted lyrics at the top of the page are from a song by Teedra Moses on her latest mixtape. I fell in love with it the instant I heard it. The emotion mixed in the the eloquent expression in this short 1 minute and a few ticks track make my day. I've started listening to it every morning either before or after my bible reading. It just makes me feel like living my life in a way that's going to make me healthy and happy!!

Politically "IN" Correct

Caught up in the artificial
Slowly changing my thoughts from surreal to superficial
Trying to stay in stride chasing the Joneses
Losing a bit of me everyday slowly-but I don't even know it

Living life more like I'm part of a mirage
Politically IN, correct focusing of all the faux pas
Now I pause, re-connect, recollect wondering who I am
Trying to find her, but it's just footprints in the sand

Now I realize
Back to the middle is where I need to stand

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Overdose

I'm trying to pull from some deep places with this one!!

Feeling cold blood rushing fast
My veins work overtime
Everytime the cravinv grows
Can I survive?
Coming down off this high
Crashing-how I must land
Clenching hard to curb these thoughts
Thinking-still don't understand.
A slave to what my body wants
Too good to leave alone
My supply running thin
Slipping slowly from the zone.
Last time I swore would be the last
Soon after I could quit
Yet I tried-hit and miss
My promises I've long forget.
So here we are one last time
Today I've got the most
Beaming up
My path to freedom...
Fading...
overdose

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Lesson Learned

Can't apologize enough for taking all of you for granted
There's not much more I could do
Running fast, I'm way too scared
Because I'm so caught up in you

Taking steps back and forth
Confused-my judgement gone
Can't bring myself to face the future
So now I'm on my own$

Too late for what may have been
My present state null and void
Resentments ringing in my ear
All static like white noise

Walking tall, head high-cant break my stride
Long days since your goodbye was sent
Finding myself slowly-a long journey ahead
Drifting toward my fate-what will be I know is meant

New Year..New Dreams

As another year comes to a close,many people begin to make "resolutions" or lists of things they want to accomplish in the new year. Examples of these include; to lose weight, to eat better, to go to church more often, etc. I've noticed that a lot of these resolutions are specific and inelastic terms with no room for error. However, by springtime, most people give up on their resolutions. I myself have, in the past, made long lists with superficial resolutions and promises that I would eventually give up on. Could it be the lack of initiative to complete these tasks that we burden ourselves with, or the lack of promise that these accomplishments hold.
This year I've decided to do something different. 2010 is my Year of Dreams. In essence, I've decided to have only 1 resolution: To Not be afraid and live life to the fullest. I want to take advantage of every opportunity that is presented and live free. No reservations. I'd like to be able to act without wondering what people will think. Most of all I want to be happy. When you're happy, everything else in your life will fall into place.

To truly be happy, you have to be content; to be content, you have to learn to accept everything life gives you in stride. Happiness is, after all, a state of mind, body, and soul.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Waiting On Forever

Searching for love, with a heart so willing
This void in my chest keeps me from feeling
Striving for your acceptance
Giving all of me
But I can't force my heart to open up
To what you need to see
So you come close, I run far
Trying to collect my feelings
I push you away
I can't be hurt
Now I realize you heal me
my only soulmate
Trying to find you
drowning while I wait
Too late
You've shut me out
Is fate on our side?
In due time we'll find out

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Falling Fast

In my head and in my heart
Is where all confusion starts
From my heart into my head
Confused and now i'm running scared

Fast and Free as I can be
Emotions grabbing hold of me
Free falling fast and I don't mind
This ride has left me lost and blind

Up and Up till i'm too high
Too high that I don't dare to try
High too far up--I dare to sail
Destined to hit hard if I fail

In my head and in my heart
Trust your head to make you smart
But if your heart can hear your head
Live life wherever you are led