Lesson Learned

Can't apologize enough for taking all of you for granted
There's not much more I could do
Running fast, I'm way too scared
Because I'm so caught up in you

Taking steps back and forth
Confused-my judgement gone
Can't bring myself to face the future
So now I'm on my own$

Too late for what may have been
My present state null and void
Resentments ringing in my ear
All static like white noise

Walking tall, head high-cant break my stride
Long days since your goodbye was sent
Finding myself slowly-a long journey ahead
Drifting toward my fate-what will be I know is meant

New Year..New Dreams

As another year comes to a close,many people begin to make "resolutions" or lists of things they want to accomplish in the new year. Examples of these include; to lose weight, to eat better, to go to church more often, etc. I've noticed that a lot of these resolutions are specific and inelastic terms with no room for error. However, by springtime, most people give up on their resolutions. I myself have, in the past, made long lists with superficial resolutions and promises that I would eventually give up on. Could it be the lack of initiative to complete these tasks that we burden ourselves with, or the lack of promise that these accomplishments hold.
This year I've decided to do something different. 2010 is my Year of Dreams. In essence, I've decided to have only 1 resolution: To Not be afraid and live life to the fullest. I want to take advantage of every opportunity that is presented and live free. No reservations. I'd like to be able to act without wondering what people will think. Most of all I want to be happy. When you're happy, everything else in your life will fall into place.

To truly be happy, you have to be content; to be content, you have to learn to accept everything life gives you in stride. Happiness is, after all, a state of mind, body, and soul.

Waiting On Forever

Searching for love, with a heart so willing

This void in my chest keeps me from feeling

Striving for your acceptance

Giving all of me

But I can't force my heart to open up

To what you need to see

So you come close, I run far

Trying to collect my feelings

I push you away

I can't be hurt

Now I realize you heal me

my only soulmate

Trying to find you

drowning while I wait

Too late

You've shut me out

Is fate on our side?

In due time we'll find out

Falling Fast

In my head and in my heart
Is where all confusion starts
From my heart into my head
Confused and now i'm running scared

Fast and Free as I can be
Emotions grabbing hold of me
Free falling fast and I don't mind
This ride has left me lost and blind

Up and Up till i'm too high
Too high that I don't dare to try
High too far up--I dare to sail
Destined to hit hard if I fail

In my head and in my heart
Trust your head to make you smart
But if your heart can hear your head
Live life wherever you are led

THIS IS THE DAY...THE FIRST OF MANY TO COME!!

So today is the first day of my blog. I've been trying to get it started, but for some reason my BlackBerry didn't want to cooperate. This is the first time i've actually had time to sit down and write it out. Most of my blog posts won't be in this format, they'll be entries of my latest random thoughts, poems, and quotes that come to mind. I love words..and most of mine are random..thus the name RANDOM WORDS for my blog. Really it should be Random words/rants, because i can rant all day long about any number of subjects. I'm young black and gifted, so what do you expect. LOL :). To give people a background about me..hmm let's see where we shall start. I'm 20, from Alabama, a Junior in college working on my degree in Marketing, I love words/writing, my love life is a constant rollercoaster, im indecisive and impatient, but i'm always ready for whatever comes my way. I love life and live it like it's going out of style. At times I can be scatterbrained. Some people in my life have called me a Jack of All Trades--master of nothing, but i tell them i'm a Jack of all trades because i'm a master of everything. HAHA. I recently deleted my Facebook because I accompish nothing. Writing poetry is the best way to get out my frustrations because the second best way isn't appropriate to talk about (wink jk). Music is another passion for me. Lately ive been torn about what I want to do with my life. I'm prudent, yet bold...deliberate and calculated...poetically gifted, politically aware, socially amiable..and charmingly witty...that's me in less than 2000 words!!